I gotta tell you. I don’t really know just yet what to think about God and what’s truly going on. No one really does. I have my thoughts and ideas, and there are people out there who feel that they know the truth, but the reality is that we really don’t and we’re all trying to figure it out and find the answers in some way.
The older I get, the more informed I get, the longer I’m able to observe and the more enlightened I become, the more I question what I’ve been told and how we are processing things. Some will tell you without any doubt what they believe in and what their truth is, and feel that their truth is absolute. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, and I understand and respect that. I think some have a level of arrogance around it, though, that is unfounded, especially when we accept and fully digest everything that we don’t know. None of us have tangible proof.
I do feel that something much bigger is going on. The universe is too vast, too strange, and way beyond our scope to really get our hands around it. I have to believe that there is something to it all, otherwise it would be a great waste of space, time, and evolution. I don’t know, a higher power, a force, something that unifies us all. The funny thing that happens with us humans is we forget how we, and all the things in the universe, are intertwined. We’re all made of star stuff. It’s so obvious to me, but seems to escape a lot of people. So much so that we’ve used religion to manipulate, control, discriminate, and fight. That doesn’t feel to me like there is anything divine or God-like represented.
Now I’m not saying that people don’t get positive things out of religion; they absolutely do. I just think there are a lot of terrestrial-based rules in organized religion that make it difficult to apply off the planet. If you believe, as I do, that life exists out there, and I might add that the majority of the science community believes this to be the case, then religion needs to be applicable throughout the universe. God is the creator of all, including everything out there. For me, when you take a look at some of the rules and prejudices alive and well in organized religion, the truth and validity of that religion breaks down.
I think it’s pompous of us to think that God would be concerned with who we love, or whether or not we go to church every Sunday. Like God doesn’t have anything else to do in this extremely vast, possibly infinite universe. I think the more important consideration is intent. Are you intentionally trying to do harm to someone. Are you knowingly working to deny certain people the same rights and life that you want for yourself, because of judgment, fear, and discrimination? If you think there are people out there who are less deserving of love, happiness and respect, and of God’s love, aren’t you working in opposition to God? The all knowing, all loving, all forgiving creator of all, and you’re saying that some of what God has created is a mistake or wrong? That position is so far from being divine, and so representative of the psychology of the human condition that it’s silly. How could the higher power, creator of all, perfect spirit make a mistake or process his creations that way? That’s the human race’s limitations and issue, not God’s word. Another thing: Would God want you to kill someone in his name? I think that those people who use religion and God to justify their bad behavior are working in opposition of what God is supposed to be, in the worst way possible.
Point is, we don’t know. We can have our theories, our feelings, our observations, but we are all left with more questions then answers. That’s humbling if you really think about it.




its hard to really know if God is for or against different types of relationship, im caught in the middle and trying to decide for myself, this actually gave me a few thongs to think about then Colton!
thus was a great thing to read by you. didn’t see that coming . very glad to hear your thoughts on this as we agree alot on the same.
Another thing: Would God want you to kill someone in his name? Ask that of the muslims who are rampaging all over the world. Ask that of the Palestinians who KILL their gay children. Those that can escape to Israel where they WONT be killed. If you are interested in truly helping others, why not try and set up an organization that helps gay men flee muslim countries where if they are openly gay they will be executed. Thats MILLIONS of gay men btw. Surely God would see this as a good deed and worthwhile? It would also be humanitarian if nothing else. Best wishes from Idaho! D
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on God & His Love in a truly honest & deeply moving way, Colton – I really have to agree with you, speaking as an older Irish gay man living in the UK and as an only child who was raised a Catholic in Rural Ireland – I suffered greatly under the Catholic system as did several generations of my family – its clear that you have a lot to say on this issue and people like your wonderful self need to be listened to far more than you currently are – that said, I do see the seeds of hope in Modern Ireland having reconciled with my family on a recent visit back to Ireland from the UK – Much Love & Best Wishes to you & Angelo from Manchester, UK – Michael xxxxxx