Natalia Kills On Break-Ups, Suicide, And ‘Trouble’

Connor Sobolik
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Connor Sobolik

September 6, 2013
8:39 a.m.

FINAL COVER parental (1)Natalia Kills is one of the most interesting, edgy, and talented acts you could catch rocking 7=inch heels. Her dark style and bad attitude mixed with her epic music  makes for the perfect pop star and an even better diva.

I had the honour of chatting with the songstress a few days after her birthday and the morning after what sounded like a wild night. We talked about loving boys, losing your mind, sex, and, of course, her new album. As a cherry on top she gifted us 5 copies of Trouble, and we want to give them to you! Comment in the section below with the title of your favorite song by her and we will send one your way.

Being that it was just her 27th birthday I couldn’t help asking how she spent the night.

I went crazy last night. There is this boy I liked and I hung out with him and we went to a strip club, and you know what happens at strip clubs. It was a great night.

With every added year it’s best to look at how you can make the following year even better. However, Kills’ resolutions would put anyone else’s aspirations to shame.

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I might buy more diamonds, kiss more boys, and add an extra inch to my heel. Which would bring me to 7-and-a-half. Fuck more and complain less.

Her new video for “Saturday” is getting a lot of buzz. The dark retelling of her upsetting past and how it pushed her to her current place of envy is enough to have you trapped between toe tapping and tearing up.

A lot of people think I am a bad girl, a sassy, bitchy, dominant girl, but maybe it’s in retaliation from being troubled, wounded, and hurt. But I’m not trying to fix myself.

I really wanted to explain the exact story of my life. Most people start with nothing and then build their way up to something, but my parents were rich and beautiful, we travelled the world. [Then] my dad went to jail and we lost everything. I left home before I was fifteen and I thought I was gonna be a grown-up. I had nowhere to go, nowhere to stay. I kinda fucked up everything myself.

And what did her parents think?

We all remember what happened. What happened to my dad was very unfair. For me it doesn’t matter how you do it. It doesn’t matter if it’s right, if you do something with a good heart that’s all that matters.

She began to gush about what it’s like to have regained that ground once again. What it means to be back where she and her family once were.

It feels amazing. When I was that little girl all I wanted to be was what I am now. And I am sitting here with the sun pouring down on me and a beautiful boy waiting for me in bed. It’s incredible. [Especially] from how I was when I was a teenager. crazy.

Kills may have an awesome voice but she also has become known for her awesome lyrics and quick wit. I asked her what her writing process looked like, especially with such heavy subject matter.

Jeff Bhasker really taught me how to be me. [He said] don’t try to sugar coat or dumb it down so people don’t think it’s too intense or wild or out of control. Get drunk out of your mind and cry yourself to sleep and then wake up and write that song. [While writing “Trouble”] I was either alone at the table crying or naked at five in the morning on my kitchen floor.

Screen Shot 2013-09-10 at 10.39.12 AMWith her new album released September 3rd it was a treat to hear a little about what to expect.

On the last album I had a bit of apprehension to confess all the things I have done.

I stalked my boyfriend and got taken away by the police. Him saying that I was mad, crazy, and insecure, ironically turned me mad, crazy, and insecure. I almost got committed and I was suicidal. It’s like finding out that the god you have been praying to is the reason you have been cursed. I was dreaming of everything being perfect when everything wasn’t. I am just saying loving you is a chainsaw to my heart.

I am not ashamed, I don’t want to be fixed, healed, or saved. This is not therapy, this is a secret that I am happy to expose, this is my confession. I am the poster child for misery and madness.

I guess on this album I can really just literally describe [the] psychotic unbearable teenage tragedy that I was going through.

Check her out online to get the latest on all things Natalia Kills. Also comment on our site and let us know what your favorite song is and we will send you a copy of her brand-new album!


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bear21 (Guest)
7 years, 1 month ago

Awesome piece.

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Michael Peyper (Guest)
7 years, 1 month ago

My favorite song by Kills would definitely be WONDERLAND. Most of the time I want to scream at the top of my lungs “TAKE ME TO WONDERLAND” This world gets too much for me and Wonderland would be the perfect escape. I relate to most songs by Natalia Kills and can’t pin point the best because they are all masterpieces.

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bigbootyhoe90 (Guest)
7 years, 1 month ago

Problem is my favorite song. However I like Wonderland as well 🙂 I actually listened to all of her music and love it to death!! I at least listen to her on Youtube ever day whether it be once a day or all day and night!!! I would love to have her cd 🙂